a hard day.

If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Claudia Ghandi

Today has be especially difficult as it is the anniversary of the passing of a very dear friend. I find myself wishing I had done things differently, simple things, like picking up the phone and calling her, or sending a quick e-mail. The pain I feel today, makes the pain her family must be feeling unfathomable, I cannot even begin to imagine.

While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil. ~John Taylor

i keep what little i have left of her tucked away, things like a picture of our "palace," her obituatry and photo (which sits framed on my mothers desk); most are little things that only i get, only i understand and treasure. To me they are more precious than gold and jewels.
My mother shares a few memories of her with me, over the course of the last months my friend and i were together we were inseparable, during calls home my mother often heard Rebecca in the background, she always made sure i told my mom hello for her. But i am alone in most of my memories, my mother and i cannot sit and say "do you remember the time...?" and being alone in those memories makes it even more important for me to share them.

she was my teacher, my confidant, my partner in crime. she was my friend. i feel sure that she would not want us to be sad, or to cry, she would say "you'll ruin your make-up and your mascara will run," and she would be right; crying would be a waste of makeup. she had a wonderful life, a wonderful family whom she loved deeply, and friends that loved her, today we should celebrate her life. i think that's what she would want, a big luau just for her with lots of food, music and plenty leis with pink flowers and grass skirts. haha she would have a ball.

on April 22, 2006 the world lost an amazing person, but heaven gained an angel, im comforted to know that she's on my side.

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. ~Author Unknown

wonderful weekend

I had a great weekend. My boyfrind and I went to Pensacola to visit his old college friends, but this trip had a dual purpose. Pensacola was the last place he had seen his best friend before he passed away unexpectedly, we went to remember his friend and to remember a dear friend of mine, who also passed away unexpectedly. We went to celebrate their lives and to remember funny stories and to pass them on to those who didnt know them. Its our way of making sure that they are never forgotten.

the weather was beautiful and the water was crystal clear and the prettiest shade of blue you have ever seen, a little chilly for swim suits, but perfect for the purpose of the trip.

there was more laughtrer than tears, and new friends and memories made. It truly was a wonderful weekend.

and again...

lets try this one more time shall we?
this time I am going to really try to keep up with this blog...

nothing much to say....

yeppers im back

ho hum its been a while since i last posted and not much has changed in my life. What and exciting life i lead... my 6 chicks are 4 months old now and boy are they BIG! i've never seen chickens that are so tall! my oldest "Dotty" is a beautiful rooster that comes up to my knee and he has the longest legs ive ever seen on a chicken, hmm maybe hes part ostrich...

tonight when i was driving to work i found myself thinking of an old friend, actually i think of her alot, i wish i had called her.

Updates

when i last posted i was awaiting guinea babies and getting married in august... boy how things have changed.

i now have 9 guineas i have hatched

(these are my last hatch)

that includes Dumpling my special needs guinea

Dumpling was born with a syndrom that prevents her from ever walking and ever being a normal guinea, i have made her sling that she sits in every day, she even has a special basket in my room .

I didnt get married. He lied to me for two years about his divorce being final. It never was. I found out 15 days before the wedding date. I was so relieved!

Now Charlie is in my life again. I couldnt be happier.

>>Charlie and i dated off and on 4 years ago. He got married, she cheated on him the same weekend my wedding was called off.

>>We hadnt spoken for 3 1/2 years when he called out of the blue. Now we are together.

>> Now is that fate or what?

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i have two new babies

Mom is a Barred Plymouth Rock. Dad is a Game Cock

Dotty hatched Nov 2, 2007

so new i dont even have a name for it yet. hatched Nov 7, 2007

MORE TO COME!!!

mini guineas

pearl guinea


i have a new hobby.
i am going to have mini guineas.

if you are not familiar with guineas, good keep it that way! they are loud buzzard headed lookin things, but ive became quite attached to ours.
most people buy guineas to help control insects and other pests, which ours do but they also have a quirk most probably dont. they think they are dogs, and they like me for some unknown reason, i have a dark gray car and when they see my coming home they run out to meet me and peck my hubcaps, they also like to look at me through the window when in in the kitchen, did i mention they are free range over 60 acers?... i dont know whythey like me ive never had anything to do with them until this project.
you see we have 6 guineas or we did until last week when one was taken off the nest by a fox (fact: from the moment a guinea chick (or keet) hatches it can fly), so i went and got the eggs (i had found the nest some weeks before) which we thought she had begun setting and put them in an incubator not really knowing how long she had been gone (we think only a few days).
FYI finding a field guinea nest is like an easter egg
hunt from hell, they like to lay in heavy brush areas or in brush piles,
the mate will give you some clues but if you dont pay attention and know
what you are looking for you WILL NEVER find it. oh and once you touch
the nest they will abandon it and move to another location and you have
to start all over again... im on my 3rd and 4th nests and ive been looking
for over a week with no luck yet.
last night my mom and i candled the eggs (shined a light through the shells) to see if we could see any movement, we saw movements in the eggs we checked!!!! im so excited